darkness

a void, a hole, nothingness, meaninglessness, a distortion, absence of light, something obscure, characterized by gloom, sullen, threatening, characterized by morbid or grimly satiric humor, closed, concealed, secret, mysterious, obscure, difficult to understand, a veil that decieves perception, in a state of ignorance absence of moral or spiritual values, unenlightened state, a swarthy complexion, my life.

I can't write fancy song lyrics or think of a ryhming couplets or write a poem like the rest of you, but instead I go to dictionary.com and find some definitions, of course the last one isnt there but it suuuure feels like it right now. I don't really know why either, it seems like I've got everything going for me to those of you who dont know me well. Why do i still complain. Why do i still do those dark meaningless things that drive me deeper into that void where nothing dwells except darkness, and loneliness. I can say I have friends, I also can say I have a relatively large amount of Friends, but why do I still feel like this. I feel unclean. I feel no will to live. I have nothing that satisfies my soul. You'd think with all my friends, with my family, with my talents, I'd be happy. Why do I still want more? Why do I not feel self-fulfilment? Why do I still let my addictions plague me? Why can I not change from my old ways? Why.....





I'm Not Alright

I should be...




I need to be...





I want to be...





I will be someday...





Alright...