provision of grace

i have experienced the bone chilling feeling of impending doom during the ealier days of this week. as the week progressed this feeling would increase from nervousness to literally giving up all hope of doing well in school, to jumping off a bridge while ingesting superheated (by a microwave) boiling javex and jumping off a bridge. LOL that was emo... i apologize.

Anyways when the madness arrived... today my first midterm, the 3 hour spare felt like 40 years of wilderness wandering; my 3 hour lab felt like the couple days when the israelite spies snuck into canaan seeing all those giants in thier big fortresses, holding my breath so they wont know i am there, my heart pounding like a hammer due to the adrenaline... and then the midterm, where against all odds God provided, i didnt deserve what He gave me: His deliverance, and grace.

also i went to worship leader's meeting today... it was amazing, encouraging, and super uplifting. i totally wasnt go in the first place. but oh man, when you're down dumps, God has ways of picking you up and setting a pair of wings on your back and teaching how to fly again.

so anyways i am thinking i did amazing on my midterm... at least that's what it felt like. so i am happy now all i gotta do is try my best for my essay due today in 11 hours that i am not nearly done, study as hard as i can for my Genetics-that-i-know-nothing-about-and-that-comprises-of-materials-over-7-chapters test and leave it up to God.

for the things we cant do, the places we cant go, and the words we dont have to say, do your best and leave the rest up to God.