prodigal

When i look back at my year, i am reminded of my many failures and my few successes. I am reminded of the many times i turned from You to seek after my earthly lusts, how i fell from your presence and how i succumbed to the accusations and whisperings of the dark one, how i ruined relationships, how i was selfish, how i became so sick of myself and what i had become that i had no desire to seek for your guidance because i thought you would reject me. But yet i am reminded now that my God still lives in me, and that He is ever working to redeem and sanctify me; He will never change, always giving, always loving, always bestowing grace upon this wretched existence that is my soul. All i need is already here, in my heart because You dwell in my heart, all i need is You, and all i need is your grace. I pray that You would take all these desires in my heart that is not of Your will and that You would pick me up turn me around to face you. I pray that I would be a man worthy to be called Your Son. I promise to seek after you with all of my heart.